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RA-The Illusion of Rheumatoid Arthritis-Our Disease

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I am the face of Rheumatoid Arthritis
I smile when all I want to do is cry
I cry when all I want to do is sleep
I can’t sleep even though I’m so tired I can’t even think
I can’t think because my mind is so confused by medication
My medication may work but it’s making me sick
I’m sick because of the side effects of all of this medication
This medication is the gateway to my fatigue
The fatigue rules me day and night leaving me drained
I’m drained and I’m unable to figure out how to make myself move
When I move I realize I’ve lost so many of my abilities
My abilities are limited and I stare into the face of guilt
Guilt is with me when I get up and when I lay down loading me with depression
Depression has become my constant companion and I can’t seem to leave it behind me
I try hard to leave it behind but this disease just won’t let me
It all leaves me tired, worn out, frustrated and filled with loneliness
Loneliness, another one of my enemies but did I mention my pain
My pain is real and not in my head like so many has said
Many say this because they can’t see all that I feel
The illusion of Rheumatoid Arthritis!

Actually there is so much more that people don’t see that we’re facing brought on by this disease. There is the lack of understanding, lack of support and our pride may never have been mentioned but that has a big place in our lives. Imagine losing your hair without warning or standing in the mirror one day combing your hair and there’s more in your comb than on your head. What about the weight gain that creeps up on you little by little or maybe it seems it happened overnight. Or it could be weight loss you’re fighting because of adverse reactions to your medication. These are just some of the things that we suffer with in silence because no one understands how much these things affect us. If only for a little while others could walk in our shoes, they would know our suffering and understand this disease so much more.

We are the faces of Rheumatoid Arthritis and we are many. We are different but we are the same. We are the brothers and sisters of a disease that pulls us together as one because we understand each other better than anyone else can. We are forever bonded together by 2 words Rheumatoid Arthritis.

Be Blessed.

RA – Rheumatoid Arthritis and Depression – How it Affects Us and How We Deal With It

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Being a person with rheumatoid arthritis is a place where I never imagined I would be and really where I don’t want to be but here I am.  How do I deal with it?  In many different ways.  I find myself sometimes trying to ignore it but that’s hard except for those rare days when I hardly feel any pain. Other times I try not to think about it and then there’s the majority of the time, reality.

I have it, it’s here, I can’t change it so I deal with it and so goes the story.  Can it be depressing?  Yes it can. I don’t get depressed often but I do have my days.  I sometimes wake up and I feel depressed for what I think is no reason but of course there is a reason.  I think about myself and this disease and I find that I feel overwhelmed at how often the pain can be there or for the simple fact that I have RA.  I cry sometimes and I want to reach out to others but I don’t want to upset anyone else or have them feel bad for me or worry about me.  I know the support and understanding is there but dealing with this at times is more than that.  We have to go through our own thing whether is to cry or to swear just to make us feel better.  Then after that I realize I needed that time for myself and I settle down and further realize, I’m not so bad.  This is how I deal with my depression.  Continue reading “RA – Rheumatoid Arthritis and Depression – How it Affects Us and How We Deal With It”

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