When you find yourself in so much pain, maybe alone and not knowing what to or who to turn to at a time when you need someone the most, how do you get through this difficult time and how do you make another one of those tough episodes that you’ve become accustomed to but never use to.
Having Rheumatoid Arthritis is something that we as sufferers will never get use to having but because it has become a part of our lives causing pain, fatigue and frustration and it is something that is never the same day to day. There are days it may be manageable but days where we are barely able to move. This leaves us filled with uncertainty and our lives filled with turmoil bringing on that needed strength that many never, ever know we are forced to come by.
Rheumatoid Arthritis is a very complicated disease to say the least. It strikes us in ways that are unexpected and devastating as we suffer from short term affects as well as long term affects. Ones that put us down for days at a time or months at a time and in some cases years. But when we are doing okay in general there are those times when our bodies just can’t seem to get going because it is just overwhelmed with fatigue. Fatigue is one of our main enemies that hangs on and ravish our bodies like crazy. It lingers and wages war like pain from the moment we try getting out of bed until we fall back in bed at night and that’s if we’re lucky enough to make it out of bed at the beginning of our day. You see for us there is no simplicity to this disease. It is so complicated and so misunderstood by many and honestly we know that the understanding we need will never happen but we have to forge on in spite of that.
Finding our strength takes more than the physical. It takes every bit of mental focus that we have. Though we struggle day after day and find it hard putting one foot in front of the other, our mental strength kicks in giving us that push we often need to fall back on. Yet we are often beaten down in both aspects. This disease is so draining on us physically and mentally leaving us tied down to a life of chaos that many just don’t see. We have learned along the way to hide what we feel and struggle with only to be ignored if even it’s seen and known. We have learned what they fail to realize or opt not to accept is out of our control so we live our lives fighting for ourselves with the little strength we have.
Where do we find strength when we are at our weakest! From the depths of our being. The place that we dig deep within when there is no other place but our inner self. We are full of strength as warriors of Rheumatoid Arthritis and no one knows how strong you have to be to survive with an auto immune disease and all that comes with it. We are constantly fighting a battle that always brewing in our bodies and minds from this disease and the medication to help us so this is how we have gained strength.
Though our strength may wane, we know we can never give up. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog.
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