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Having Rheumatoid Arthritis is so unpredictable for us which means each day is a day that may or may not be okay.  We are always riddled with pain but the different levels is the key that makes that determination.  Not knowing what’s in store for us makes it difficult to know how our day will be for us and those in and around our lives.  So when we say, Life with Rheumatoid Arthritis is a Life filled with uncertainties, limitations, hurt and pain, know it is the truth.  Is it really that hard to believe!!

Is is really hard to believe…..that my disease is one that controls every aspect of my life
Is is really hard to believe…..this disease has made me lose control of my abilities
Is it really hard to believe…..I suffer because of my limitations
Is it really hard to believe…..those limitations leave me burdened with guilt
Is it really hard to believe…..my guilt is for you, you and me
Is it really hard to believe…..my pain is never ever the same
Is it really hard to believe…..that my pain may seem subtle but it is a powerful beast
Is it really hard to believe…..I am mentally worn from the stresses of RA
Is it really hard to believe…..my stress brings fatigue that causes me to lay down because                                                              that’s all that I can do
Is it really hard to believe…..from that fatigue I find sleep is still impossible
Is it really hard to believe…..though I cry out for understanding for all that I go through,                                                              finding it may never happen
Is it really hard to believe…..even with understanding, patience can still be lost
Is it really hard to believe…..RA does to us things many may never know or believe
Is it really hard to believe…..this disease can appear invisible but its wrath is always at                                                                  work;

From all of this we just want rest, peace, to be free of pain and to live life Whole again but we realize this will never be because this disease has invaded our lives and taken parts of it that means so much to us.  It has robbed us of ourselves, it has stolen our abilities, it has chased away love ones and made us shy away from many and it has shown us the true meaning of pain and fatigue.  So is it really hard to believe that WE truly Hate Rheumatoid Arthritis, the disease that has changed who and how we are while still being one that many will never truly understand.  The disease that we are forced to face has no cure.

Be Blessed.

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