Rheumatoid Arthritis is our disease one that we have and is forced to live with. This is exactly how we feel :
I hate the fact that you burst into my life with hardly any warning
I hate how you control the way I feel
I hate how you’ve changed the way I look
I hate when I wake up each day with pain and swollen joints because of you
I hate how you sneak in and take my energy away leaving me tired and worn out
I hate the medicines I have to take to fight you and the rituals of taking them
I hate how those medicines make me feel
I hate the side effects that comes from them in support of you
I hate when it’s impossible to get of bed and you lay there with me day in and day out
I hate when you take away my ability to do things that I need and want to do
I hate what an emotional toll you take on me
I hate how you play terrible mind games on me
I hate when I talk to people about you and they stare at me in disbelief as if you aren’t right there with me
I hate that you are confused with others that have the name “arthritis”
I hate when my truths about you are met with doubts
I hate hiding my fears about you and facing them alone with just you by my side
I hate I have no support and understanding while fighting you
I hate that I’ve lost so many people since you came into my life
I hate how much I have to struggle each and every day since knowing you
I hate saying your name out loud for fear of you hearing me when I crave some long needed rest
I hate I have to admit to you there is no Cure
But above all, I hate the fact that I have you here for Eternity.
Be Blessed
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January 27, 2016 at 8:05 pm
I’m tearing up just reading this. I’ve been having a nightmare flare of my own chronic pain condition lately, and I know just how you feel when it comes to most of the items on this list.
I know we don’t really *know* each other, Corrie, but you have my virtual love, support, and understanding through this difficult time. I’ll keep hoping like mad they find a cure someday for your RA.
January 27, 2016 at 9:33 pm
Thank you so much and I am truly wishing the same for you. We will consider ourselves unknown friends. God Bless you and your wonderful spirit and your family of course.